Today both suck(s?? lol) and feels nice. I guess it's a bi-polar type of day. There's so much to say..
Dear Bond,
I miss you. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.
I hope the future results with both of us being happy and content.
Your Cali-girl
Yep. Bi-polar. lol
x
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The 5 Year Plan
For a very long time, I have always felt like I belonged somewhere else but not because I felt lost or unaccepted here. The first time I flew on a plane, I was 15 years old. I flew to visit my sister, she lived in New Mexico. Ever since then I have been fascinated with the whole in-flight experience. Fast forward many years later..to the phone call that changed my life. My (now ex) bf's cousin rang from Italy. Her husband was in the military and her family was stationed an hour away from Venice. She asked me to come visit and it was then- my mind has been on travel mode ever since.
At the age of 26, I took my first ever trip to Europe. I asked a few friends to join me but they all flaked. But I didn't care, I was so excited I went alone. I booked a 12 day tour starting from Rome, Florence, Switzerland, Paris and to London. In addition, I added an extra 2 weeks in Italy to visit my ex's cousin. I stayed in Europe for a month. I lost my ATM card at the Paris train station before heading to London. The tour stayed in London for 2 days. Those 2 days in London was all it took. I fell in love with the city, the people, the culture, the homes, the accents and the London life. I've always been fascinated with the the English. My 2 quick (and broke) days there were the happiest I felt-ever. (BTW-Please don't compare this with the birth of my children-not the same happiness.)
Anyway-that was all it took. I knew exactly where I wanted to be.. in England. A year later, fate brought England to me. A weird, strange internet incident dropped a pleasant surprise into my life. Though that is a whole separate story- it confirmed my desires for wanting to move there.
Fast forward (again)- after a thinking about it for a long time, I decided to announce my plans for my relocation in the year 2015. I spoke with family and friends about it. I felt it was best to bring it out into the open now, to give everyone a chance to soak it in even though it would be another 5 years before it happens. I talk about it often however I get the feeling that my family and friends don't fully believe that it would actually happen. lol
A year has passed, it's now a 4 year plan. So much to prepare for, so much to research. Nothing but excitement and anticipation. I am still very much looking forward to this.
More updates to come. Stay tuned. x
At the age of 26, I took my first ever trip to Europe. I asked a few friends to join me but they all flaked. But I didn't care, I was so excited I went alone. I booked a 12 day tour starting from Rome, Florence, Switzerland, Paris and to London. In addition, I added an extra 2 weeks in Italy to visit my ex's cousin. I stayed in Europe for a month. I lost my ATM card at the Paris train station before heading to London. The tour stayed in London for 2 days. Those 2 days in London was all it took. I fell in love with the city, the people, the culture, the homes, the accents and the London life. I've always been fascinated with the the English. My 2 quick (and broke) days there were the happiest I felt-ever. (BTW-Please don't compare this with the birth of my children-not the same happiness.)
Anyway-that was all it took. I knew exactly where I wanted to be.. in England. A year later, fate brought England to me. A weird, strange internet incident dropped a pleasant surprise into my life. Though that is a whole separate story- it confirmed my desires for wanting to move there.
Fast forward (again)- after a thinking about it for a long time, I decided to announce my plans for my relocation in the year 2015. I spoke with family and friends about it. I felt it was best to bring it out into the open now, to give everyone a chance to soak it in even though it would be another 5 years before it happens. I talk about it often however I get the feeling that my family and friends don't fully believe that it would actually happen. lol
A year has passed, it's now a 4 year plan. So much to prepare for, so much to research. Nothing but excitement and anticipation. I am still very much looking forward to this.
More updates to come. Stay tuned. x
2011!
Happy new year! What a great start to the year by ringing it in at my favorite spot in the world- London, England! I'm feeling very confident that this is THE year. The year I become healthier and whole lot happier with my body, mind and soul. Ohh them some heavy words yo.. lol
Determination combined with motivation. Resolutions... well, for one I have decided to be more social and have opened myself BACK into the social networking world. I cherish my privacy and my alone-ness however, if I don't open myself up I am going to turn into a hermit. And I don't want that. My last trip to Europe a few weeks ago has really got me thinking about things. I was (and have been) to the most beautiful destinations in the world feeling so crappy. How can you fully enjoy life and your surroundings when you feel so large. It sounds vain but it can really damage you emotionally. And I'm so tired. I'm exhausted. I'm ready for this change.
Two- I joined a 3 month Biggest Loser competition at work. The crew has been great and supportive of each other. We lost over 30lbs combined in the first week! I've decided to start a 1 week commitment to go to the gym every morning this week. I miss sitting in the sauna day dreaming about my life in 5 wait- 4 years. Which leads to just that...
Three- My now 4 year plan. This plan is where my strongest determination lies. I am deeply passionate about my goal. I have so much planning and research to do. It's something I enjoy doing and something that makes me feel good. (see my 5 year plan blog for more info).
I feel good.
I'm ready.
Let's do this!
Determination combined with motivation. Resolutions... well, for one I have decided to be more social and have opened myself BACK into the social networking world. I cherish my privacy and my alone-ness however, if I don't open myself up I am going to turn into a hermit. And I don't want that. My last trip to Europe a few weeks ago has really got me thinking about things. I was (and have been) to the most beautiful destinations in the world feeling so crappy. How can you fully enjoy life and your surroundings when you feel so large. It sounds vain but it can really damage you emotionally. And I'm so tired. I'm exhausted. I'm ready for this change.
Two- I joined a 3 month Biggest Loser competition at work. The crew has been great and supportive of each other. We lost over 30lbs combined in the first week! I've decided to start a 1 week commitment to go to the gym every morning this week. I miss sitting in the sauna day dreaming about my life in 5 wait- 4 years. Which leads to just that...
Three- My now 4 year plan. This plan is where my strongest determination lies. I am deeply passionate about my goal. I have so much planning and research to do. It's something I enjoy doing and something that makes me feel good. (see my 5 year plan blog for more info).
I feel good.
I'm ready.
Let's do this!
Monday, November 15, 2010
November? Seriously??!!?
Fantastic! It's now November and since my last July "surprise" blog- I have only gained-no loss. I returned that 6 wk Body Makeover cos it was too strict. OK fine- it's another excuse. I take it back. Now weeks before I leave on vacation, I am still the same size. *huge sigh...
Saturday, July 17, 2010
INCEPTION
Wow this movie was so good I had to blog about it. I haven't seen a movie that good in a long time. Go see it.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
July?!? Already??
Has a whole month passed? Dang.
Anywho, not much has happened in a month except I haven't lost any weight. Go figure. I bought the 6 week body makeover and am hoping I stick with something for once. I notice that after a week if I haven't lost 50 lbs, I get discouraged so I'm going to blog to keep motivated. =)
So week one: I'm actually impressed with myself. I've been eating pretty well. I'm not going to lie, I ate some things I shouldn't have but knowing that I wasn't going to restrict myself, it made it easier for me to follow through. I packed a weeks worth of lunch for work and it's been very helpful. I didn't exercise though, I really should. My girls aren't home. It would be so easy to go to the gym right now. I've been spending all my time at the office instead. This week I've been able to pull myself away at a more reasonable hour. Wow, I've impressed myself twice this week! lol
I weighed myself every night at the same hour this week and have lost a total of 3 lbs! Yay!
I marked the calender and gave myself a healthy weight loss goal every month. I hope to reach my desired weight by my birthday. First goal date is in December before I leave for Europe. I have outfits planned out in my head already. I'm looking forward to packing light. Fat people require bigger clothing that takes up more room. I am trying to avoid that. ;-)
I'm going to take this week by week. Time goes by so quickly, you (ok, me!) only notice how slow and painful it is when you can't eat a ribeye smothered with butter. Damn.
So far so good... I'll keep posting.
Anywho, not much has happened in a month except I haven't lost any weight. Go figure. I bought the 6 week body makeover and am hoping I stick with something for once. I notice that after a week if I haven't lost 50 lbs, I get discouraged so I'm going to blog to keep motivated. =)
So week one: I'm actually impressed with myself. I've been eating pretty well. I'm not going to lie, I ate some things I shouldn't have but knowing that I wasn't going to restrict myself, it made it easier for me to follow through. I packed a weeks worth of lunch for work and it's been very helpful. I didn't exercise though, I really should. My girls aren't home. It would be so easy to go to the gym right now. I've been spending all my time at the office instead. This week I've been able to pull myself away at a more reasonable hour. Wow, I've impressed myself twice this week! lol
I weighed myself every night at the same hour this week and have lost a total of 3 lbs! Yay!
I marked the calender and gave myself a healthy weight loss goal every month. I hope to reach my desired weight by my birthday. First goal date is in December before I leave for Europe. I have outfits planned out in my head already. I'm looking forward to packing light. Fat people require bigger clothing that takes up more room. I am trying to avoid that. ;-)
I'm going to take this week by week. Time goes by so quickly, you (ok, me!) only notice how slow and painful it is when you can't eat a ribeye smothered with butter. Damn.
So far so good... I'll keep posting.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
June..
I looked back and forgot I deleted all of my previous posts. At the time it was probably a good idea but now I'm wishing I had memories from my Eurotrip to read about. Oh well.
So, here I am sitting here and realizing that the only time I want to blog is when I'm either traveling or having challenges in my life. The funny thing is that I'm the most private person you'll ever meet yet here I am about to spill my heart out online to the world. Strange eh?
After turning the big 3-0, I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life, plan my future. I haven't yet come to anything solid except somewhere in my 5 year goal involves me trying to leave this place and go somewhere far away. A place where I can feel like I'm home.
A note to my readers (if any) -my blogs will be somewhat cryptic and it may not be as clear but it's my story, my thoughts and I don't think it needs to be explained anymore than I'm willing to share. So let's rewind 6 months back for a quick recap of my year so far...
January- I thought to myself, "This year is going to be pretty amazing".
February- Proved myself to be true when an unexpected gift landed me back to a place I'd like to call home.
March- I can't think straight anymore, things are falling apart. Have no idea what is going to happen.
April- The big 3-0! It came hard but the celebration- Mandatory. Something..anything to lift me from this sudden loss of a perfect idea. After a long exhale, I realized that it was nothing more than my disappointment that the perfect idea was not so perfect- for me. It didnt sting as bad. Moving on.. Another unexpected gift arrived: Scrabble! Addictive.
May- Addiction is good when it challenges you to think and use your brain. Though I find myself and my brain clouded these days..the game has gotten my attention. I can't believe I'm enjoying it so much. Hmmm..
June- Here we are in the beginning days of June. In one damn week, I've managed to yet again pull myself out of a plot to what might have been a good movie. The cast is all wrong. The chemistry on set however is starting to show signs of potential....Production begins.
And present day- June 5th at 12:30am. It appears that location is all wrong. Afraid of the possibility of a flop, I'm not that confident to take on such a production. I think its best to start from a far.
The farther the better. Or should I say the farther the "safer"?
So, here I am sitting here and realizing that the only time I want to blog is when I'm either traveling or having challenges in my life. The funny thing is that I'm the most private person you'll ever meet yet here I am about to spill my heart out online to the world. Strange eh?
After turning the big 3-0, I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life, plan my future. I haven't yet come to anything solid except somewhere in my 5 year goal involves me trying to leave this place and go somewhere far away. A place where I can feel like I'm home.
A note to my readers (if any) -my blogs will be somewhat cryptic and it may not be as clear but it's my story, my thoughts and I don't think it needs to be explained anymore than I'm willing to share. So let's rewind 6 months back for a quick recap of my year so far...
January- I thought to myself, "This year is going to be pretty amazing".
February- Proved myself to be true when an unexpected gift landed me back to a place I'd like to call home.
March- I can't think straight anymore, things are falling apart. Have no idea what is going to happen.
April- The big 3-0! It came hard but the celebration- Mandatory. Something..anything to lift me from this sudden loss of a perfect idea. After a long exhale, I realized that it was nothing more than my disappointment that the perfect idea was not so perfect- for me. It didnt sting as bad. Moving on.. Another unexpected gift arrived: Scrabble! Addictive.
May- Addiction is good when it challenges you to think and use your brain. Though I find myself and my brain clouded these days..the game has gotten my attention. I can't believe I'm enjoying it so much. Hmmm..
June- Here we are in the beginning days of June. In one damn week, I've managed to yet again pull myself out of a plot to what might have been a good movie. The cast is all wrong. The chemistry on set however is starting to show signs of potential....Production begins.
And present day- June 5th at 12:30am. It appears that location is all wrong. Afraid of the possibility of a flop, I'm not that confident to take on such a production. I think its best to start from a far.
The farther the better. Or should I say the farther the "safer"?
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