I looked back and forgot I deleted all of my previous posts. At the time it was probably a good idea but now I'm wishing I had memories from my Eurotrip to read about. Oh well.
So, here I am sitting here and realizing that the only time I want to blog is when I'm either traveling or having challenges in my life. The funny thing is that I'm the most private person you'll ever meet yet here I am about to spill my heart out online to the world. Strange eh?
After turning the big 3-0, I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life, plan my future. I haven't yet come to anything solid except somewhere in my 5 year goal involves me trying to leave this place and go somewhere far away. A place where I can feel like I'm home.
A note to my readers (if any) -my blogs will be somewhat cryptic and it may not be as clear but it's my story, my thoughts and I don't think it needs to be explained anymore than I'm willing to share. So let's rewind 6 months back for a quick recap of my year so far...
January- I thought to myself, "This year is going to be pretty amazing".
February- Proved myself to be true when an unexpected gift landed me back to a place I'd like to call home.
March- I can't think straight anymore, things are falling apart. Have no idea what is going to happen.
April- The big 3-0! It came hard but the celebration- Mandatory. Something..anything to lift me from this sudden loss of a perfect idea. After a long exhale, I realized that it was nothing more than my disappointment that the perfect idea was not so perfect- for me. It didnt sting as bad. Moving on.. Another unexpected gift arrived: Scrabble! Addictive.
May- Addiction is good when it challenges you to think and use your brain. Though I find myself and my brain clouded these days..the game has gotten my attention. I can't believe I'm enjoying it so much. Hmmm..
June- Here we are in the beginning days of June. In one damn week, I've managed to yet again pull myself out of a plot to what might have been a good movie. The cast is all wrong. The chemistry on set however is starting to show signs of potential....Production begins.
And present day- June 5th at 12:30am. It appears that location is all wrong. Afraid of the possibility of a flop, I'm not that confident to take on such a production. I think its best to start from a far.
The farther the better. Or should I say the farther the "safer"?
